Relaxing is something I always thought I was good at. Until I was diagnosed with Anxiety. Now I realize that I am never truly relaxed...not even when i sleep! I am always tense and anxious. I have never known why...maybe im just a high strung person? Nope, its got a name. And its not something I really want or need right now.
I was given the option of a prescription but turned it down. I'm not dyin, I don't need some pill! Instead he advised me to take up Yoga or Tai Chi or some other similar class. I was told to get my heart rate up every day. I was told to take a few minutes every day and just close my eyes and relax, and breathe. Oh ya...and he said to stay away from Chocolate. DUN DUN DUN. Are you kidding me?! Anyone who knows me, Knows I am a Hot Chocolate addict. I LOVE the stuff! I drink its at least every day, and when the weather cools down, that'll change to 2 or more cups a day. Its delicious and warm and comforting. But apparently the sugar and caffeine content dosen't help anxiety. (Go figure) So I'm trimming it down to 4 times a week. I refuse to go cold turkey!! I will not give up without a fight!
So my newest journey is thus- To learn to relax. Learn to slow down, and see the good for the good and not worry too much about the things I can't change. I will learn to enjoy herbal tea as much as I love Hot Chocolate (*sigh*) and I will delve into my non existent flexible side and give Yoga a shot.
Here's to a new, calm, less anxious Me.
~Cheressa~
